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Mommy

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I remember having a premonition in my dreams every night

Towards the end of midnight 

I wake of a dream of me holding a lightly moving and sleeping bundle 



Baby soft and sleeping 

Mine to be certain with my hair color and worry brows

And of course the pinkest cheeks to be had 



It seems in this reoccurring dream of the future

I'm a mother with a joyful baby boy 

As this dream goes on the child grows up with only me in the picture not a father to be had



I can not see the color of my son's eyes to proclaim a father's identity 

Only my future son telling me

"Hurry mommy I'm waiting"



Then I wake up


Back in my own bed 


Still twenty-two young and motherless and without know how I get my son calling to me from a dream of future



I know one thing 


I will not bring a child into this world that is full of hate and cruelty 


Where safety is but a dream




I vow to make this world safe and kind


For a child of mine needs safe peace of mind and kindness


Your mother was born into a cruel unforgiving world that shunned me and I do not wish the same for you



Tho sadly I do not know your father


But someone must have loved me enough to give me such a treasure to give my life purpose


Vowing to be the best mommy there is just for you



Just know mommy already loves you


Even tho you are not born into this world yet


I already love you



Your life will be filled with endless stories of heros and dragons  


Spoiled rotten with endless bedtime stories and homemade baked cookies 


Nice packed school lunches and neat clothes 



I want to give you everything I never had 


A family


A safe warm home to call your own


A mother who loves you and hopefully a father 


You will never go hungry or be afraid like your mother had to do 



I will make sure you never live the life I had 


Because my life was lonely and sad


Your life will never be that way I swear it 




I want to sing to you all the songs I know


Celebrate your birthday with a cake I made just for you


And watch you grow up




I may not always be the best mommy But know 


I always love you


Teach you decent values and how to be kind




But of course your just like me


Your mommy is a crybaby and is afraid of thunderstorms and the dark


So I know you will have the same fears as I do



I want you to be strong and smart


But most of all 


Gentle and chivalrous 



Mommy will try her best not to make too many mistakes


And try to live as long as she can


But I am frail so give me time 




I'll always protect you even if you get annoyed 


Make sure to kiss every scraped knee to make the pain go away


But most of all your my baby boy 



Hopefully in the future this world will be kind and safe just for you


I'll be waiting for you my lil one waiting for you to call me mommy


Your my little Jasper Lee 




Until then your mommy has a lot of growing up to do 


And fighting left to do


So that one day you will never have to live a life of fighting or fear only happiness and sweet dreams 




You have my blood so of course you will be strong like me one day


Let's just hope its not too soon


until then wait alil while longer my dearest child because mommy is not ready to be a mommy yet but I will be

Dreams of the future are sweet and in a shape of a wiggling bundle I wanna protectRed Rose 
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